News

There seems to have been a great amount of bad news these days so I've not been motivated to blog. Pretty sure all my words would come out somewhat negative and discouraging because as much as I attempt to "count it all joy," that's how I've been feeling these days. Starting with Jordan losing his job, many job prospects falling through, a visit to Lake City falling through, and ending with both of our cars breaking down. Anyway during all this struggle, I do what I do best-withdraw. I still thanked the Lord for providing a roof over our heads, food in our bellies (have you seen Adelaide's lately?!), and clothes to wear...not to mention family (well most of them) that love us : D

What an adventure for our family! Coming to Utah sounded like a great plan back in August although a difficult one. The biggest obstacle in our life was the debt we accumulated through medical bills and the cost of living in Lake City, so the only way to rid ourselves of that was to decrease our monthly bills in order to put more effort into getting our feet back on the ground. However, through 4 months of being unemployed, that obviously has not been working out very well. Most of the time when I'd look at our bank account and see nothing I allowed myself to get caught up in despair...only to have the Lord pull myself out of the pit with his provision! Even when his provision is NOT what I want it to be. He continues to teach me and humble me as our plans for the future shrink significantly.

While living in my parents house I have learned that:
Idols come in all shapes and sizes.
For instance, having my own place and somewhere to call "home" has been a huge idol in my life. Somewhere where I can put my decorative touches on it to mark it as mine, somewhere where I can entertain people and have guests over, somewhere where I can have a sense of being organized....these things really don't matter!
Another idol I've noticed has been not knowing what my role as a wife and a mother is at the moment. With Jordan being home and me having to work part time, this has become way more of a burden to me than it should be.

Contentment is a decision.
God began this work in my heart during my first year of living in Lake City and it felt like as soon as I chose to be content, I had to let go of it.
I don't pray for God to make me content, I pray that God will remind me to choose to be content and that my spirit will be teachable.

Anyway, here is the news for now:
God has once again provided for all our needs and we are actually able to go visit Colorado next week...a little belated anniversary trip (plus we need to take advantage of all of Jordan's "time off")...so excited for that!

Jordan will be working this summer as a home security installation tech. We're hoping he starts sometime near the end of March and work through the fall. What this means is we'll be relocated to the city of their (the company) choice. Scary and exciting! What this also means is...we have no idea what we'll be doing after this summer or where we'll be living so we could definitely use some prayer for direction. Neither of us are interested in coming back to Utah at the moment, unless that is where God wants us, so we'll just wait and see. I really do love having our options open like this, but the planner in me is itching to get out!