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Jordan and I have been considering a move to Utah for some time now, actually since last winter. But we had decided not to because our heart is really for the youth in Lake City and because we didn't see any real reasons to move except for selfish ones (winters here are harrrrrrd). About 2 weeks ago the subject came up again as Jordan's job didn't look promising for the winter and this past Saturday when our car REALLY broke down, it pushed us to really make a decision. We have come to love Lake City and I have learned to be so content here, which is ironic. God has provided many amazing relationships and ministry opportunities. But our priorities are a little different now as we have a child to care for and raise and perhaps more in the future. So as of the end of August ( I know, so soon!), we'll be relocating our little family to Utah where we'll stay with my parents for a while to save some money and get our feet on the ground. Last night we said goodbye to the youth group and that was ridiculously hard, but I am excited to see where God leads us next.
How am I feeling about all this?
Scared, sad, excited, relieved....I've been wrestling with many mixed emotions this past week. One night I spent all night wrestling with it and could not for the life of me fall asleep. So I stayed up and prayed through many things and God revealed some things in my life that I had been unaware of. Such as...I have loved serving the youth group and have cared more about loving them than I have cared about loving Jesus and serving Him. They have become an idol in my life but the fact that it was ministry kept it hidden from me. I am humbled as well, because we'll be going from a really nice, beautiful apartment in a small town in the gorgeous Rocky Mountains to living in my parents basement (not that we won't enjoy it! we will, it's just SO different)...
This is something we're still learning as new parents, putting the future of our child before our selfish wants and desires and making decisions that further the Lord's kingdom, not our own kingdom. It's also known as carrying our cross and dying to ourselves daily.
Jordan and I have been considering a move to Utah for some time now, actually since last winter. But we had decided not to because our heart is really for the youth in Lake City and because we didn't see any real reasons to move except for selfish ones (winters here are harrrrrrd). About 2 weeks ago the subject came up again as Jordan's job didn't look promising for the winter and this past Saturday when our car REALLY broke down, it pushed us to really make a decision. We have come to love Lake City and I have learned to be so content here, which is ironic. God has provided many amazing relationships and ministry opportunities. But our priorities are a little different now as we have a child to care for and raise and perhaps more in the future. So as of the end of August ( I know, so soon!), we'll be relocating our little family to Utah where we'll stay with my parents for a while to save some money and get our feet on the ground. Last night we said goodbye to the youth group and that was ridiculously hard, but I am excited to see where God leads us next.
How am I feeling about all this?
Scared, sad, excited, relieved....I've been wrestling with many mixed emotions this past week. One night I spent all night wrestling with it and could not for the life of me fall asleep. So I stayed up and prayed through many things and God revealed some things in my life that I had been unaware of. Such as...I have loved serving the youth group and have cared more about loving them than I have cared about loving Jesus and serving Him. They have become an idol in my life but the fact that it was ministry kept it hidden from me. I am humbled as well, because we'll be going from a really nice, beautiful apartment in a small town in the gorgeous Rocky Mountains to living in my parents basement (not that we won't enjoy it! we will, it's just SO different)...
This is something we're still learning as new parents, putting the future of our child before our selfish wants and desires and making decisions that further the Lord's kingdom, not our own kingdom. It's also known as carrying our cross and dying to ourselves daily.
6 comments:
So glad to hear you are coming "home." When you commented on brook's post about seeing you soon, I wandered if there was something to that. Either way I hope a continued peace during your next month of planning and transition. Really, it'll be nice to have you back, and to welcome Jordan!..and adelaide of course!
AWW I am sure you are going to miss Lake City so much... we still miss it. Hopefully we will still get to see you. Let us know if you come down to visit Jordan's parents... we would LOOOOOOOOOVVVVEEE to see you... Miss you tons beautiful momma!! *hugs*
While we're of course sad to see you go, it sounds like a wise decision and as a parent I totally understand. Thanks for sharing yourself in this post to answer everyone's questions.
that was one of the hardest lessons I had to learn when I realized I was "loving" the greenhouse more than Jesus. I totally feel you.
I didn't even realize you'd be back when Zac and Brook are....that'll be nice for you all, I'm sure.
How exciting! Can't wait to see you. :-)=
I'm so excited!!! And now it seems like it's really coming true!
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